Spoon - Inside Out (Lyrics)

Something about this song makes me not okay. The song starts off with a slow progression towards the lyrics, before Britt Daniel belts out, "Time's gone inside out". Lyrically, well it sounds somewhat like a love song, of the unrequited sort, lost love, and dejection. Unfortunately, I can relate to the lyrics at the moment, especially the elements,

"There's intense gravity in you

(There's intense gravity in you)

I'm just your satellite

(I'm just your satellite)"

Like the ebb and flow of ocean waves on a beach, with the gravitational attraction that stimulates such a motion towards the shore, something about [name] keeps pulling me towards him, although I'd like to rid of the emotions, the feelings, and the good memories. By pushing the good ones out of my mind (I really don't remember the bad ones), maybe the feelings won't linger and I don't have to imagine how it'd be if my daydreams came true. There's that intense gravity pulling me towards his essence, but I'll constantly remain a satellite, gravitating towards but never really reaching him. It's bothersome, annoying, and hurtful to do this to myself. Nothing done on his part because these feelings haven't been vocalized for fear that whatever cosmetic layer of friendship that currently exists will end up dissolving. But time is slowly taking care of that. No need to fret now. Speaking of time...here's another one that resonates with my current state of mind --

I don't usually lay out my emotions and feelings so openly, sometimes it comes off as too intense and I end up scaring people away. But honesty and communication are supposedly necessary qualities in order to grow as an individual, and in understanding oneself, I guess.